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Joined & Blessed
I am not a joiner. I do not 'do' join. I once was programed to join but life erased my hard drive and then uploaded solitary. It is very hard to sit here, every day and reprogram myself. I am not a programer. God is doing it in His own way and in His own time.
God knows I desire to join in.
To put or bring into close association or relationship
To meet and merge with
To become a part or member of
To come into the company of
To participate with in an act or activity
I take innocent ideas and create monsters. I take up blogging (again). And judge myself to be lacking.
Join others who blog and see their beautiful words and blogs. And judge myself to be lacking.
And I join. Everything. To become BETTER.
And God teaches me that I am joining in too many things so I can get overloaded and lay in bed depressed, therefore not doing anything at all. Alone again, naturally.
And God reminds me that I am just as a child, starting out, not expect to be perfect. Because there is no perfection besides Him. Just be me and enjoy that. Be wacky if wacky is what my spirit needs.
And I quit joining. And just do what I 'feel' needs to be done.
I had planned to skip this Thursday. This prompt. All I could think of was my Thanksgiving would be so different than what most people have. But my heart wanted to join in. So I read Bonnie's post. She was not asking for my Thanksgiving. She was asking about my giving Thanks.
Even though my journey is not exactly like others, God blesses me everyday and shows me I have something in common with most. I no longer want to be like others. I am learning to be happy in my own skin.
My posts may not be filled with quotes from the Bible.... but the verses run though my head and heart if I am blogging or not. All day long... and I am blessed. I can be cooking, playing with my Peanut (my beloved Chihuahua companion that gives me unconditional love, just like God) or even playing a game on my Kindle and the Bible, God's words, flow all around me.
PS I stumbled upon a link that I had tucked away and thought you might like to see it too... please check my new page From Your Father for a love letter from God. :-) I love you!!